beholding and becoming

Hikayat-hikayat sebelum Kerja

Posted: 29th July 2010 by ling in church, friends, just an update, melancong, when grace was shown

Before I began the official “how is work” post, here are some photos of how I spent my weeks and days before work began… (after Redang) :) I’m so glad for the break the Lord has blessed me with, and the great timing at which Zheng and Mei jie came back, I love my June! :) It’s truly a lovely break and headstart to work, and I’m missing all the lovely memories already!

Here are some pics from our Melaka trip when Zheng came back, I’ve posted all on FB, but since the blog is a recollection of memories kan, I will post my favourite pics of the trip here!

And then the remaining week after Melaka trip was spent spending it in a “rush”! Because I kept thinking, oh no, my free weekday afternoons are coming to an end… so here goes! Yes, it was centered around food… so don’t complain if you see me gaining even more weight :p

Hikayat-hikayat Kerja Bab 1

Posted: 27th July 2010 by ling in church, just an update, the teens

What makes my week (work-unrelated lol):

My favourite Thosaiiiiii :)

Egg tarts from Uncle Jeff :)

@Teens two weeks ago:

Chloe :)

Being cheeky with Clement enjoying himself quietly :)

On the see-saw with Clement

Cheeky part II (sorry lupa rotate lol)

Happy family :) (Aunty Tammy missing from pix!)

Cheeky family

With the other teens :))

Flying kite!

Vincent’s 24th birthday

Posted: 26th July 2010 by ling in church, this is for you

Vincent’s birthday dinner at Susan’s! :)

p.s. Sorry for the bad quality of photos, it’s my trustee 2MP camera phone! :p

Vincent & Loon

Ping & Loon

Ping & I

Vincent & I

…and the FOOD! THE MOST I’ve ever eaten in Susan’s =/

Actually there’s appetiser 3 but I didn’t take a pic of it cos it’s a weird vege-ish soup :p

Appetiser 1: Escargot

Appetiser 2: Mushroom Soup

Spaghetti Marinara

Four Seasons Pizza (right?)

Lamb Shank

Dessert 1: Tiramisu

Dessert 2: Crème brulée *hearts*

All of the above are Vincent’s pick, heheh. Except the Tiramisu (Loon’s) and Crème brulée (mine). :) Hungry already just posting this!

Happy Birthday Vincent! :) Thanks for always always being a very helpful and selfless brother in Christ :)

Ways to cope with Monday blues!

Posted: 25th July 2010 by ling in just an update, this is for you

Although I’ve not experienced the Monday-morning blues syndrome yet, in some of my quiet moments during my driving I thought of these ways to psyche yourself into thinking positively about work :p Of course, these things said, our ultimate source of strength and encouragement should come first and foremost from the Lord who gives freely :) I can testify to that very much!! :)

Here are thoughts one is encouraged to have according to the days of the week:

Monday: It’s a new week, whee! New people to meet, new things to learn, and much adventure ahead! And I’ve had 2 days of ‘holidays’, enough to start-up the week :)
Tuesday: *feels a little groggier* But it’s just Tuesday! Tak boleh complain lah, not even half the week past yet… Be thankful you have a job! :)
Wednesday: Woohoo, it’s mid-week already! :)
Thursday: It’s a day away to your weekend can you believe it?? :)
Friday: It’s the day of the week where people’s tempo in working is exceptionally slower and lazier, because with the casual attire and all, it feels like a half-Saturday already. This day, I believe, needs no encouragement because it’s everyone’s happiest day of the week. :p

And so that ends PeiLing’s (The Dummy)’s guide to cope with Monday morning blues.

Over and out.

hurting those we love most

Posted: 23rd July 2010 by ling in my meditations and such, when grace was shown

I don’t know if anyone noticed or if I’m the last to realise but I’ve recently noticed that in our weakness, helplessness and sinfulness (I think it’s the sin in us that causes all these to sprout) we often end up hurting those we love, especially those we love most.

I’m guilty as charged (no one’s as inspired as the one who speaks from personal experience :( ), and I’ve often felt that it’s when I care and love the “most” (well at least I thought I was, but alas, the deceitfulness of the heart) that I end up being hurt the most, because the more you care and love someone, you would desire the other to reciprocate. Simply because you love that person, and that this person’s reciprocated love would make you feel even happier.

And so we (guilty as charged ma) writhe in pain when the other doesn’t seem to care the way we want them to, and we become pushy, demanding, and become what KimOng (National Cyclist JosiahNg’s wife) calls the godzilla. The one who takes control dogmatically.

I reflected on this and felt really awful after, realising how I’ve made my friends’ lives centre and revolve around none else but me. :(

It’s such an irony as I mentioned at the beginning.

Why do we always end up hurting the ones we love most?

I think it’s when we come in.

I am humbled and reminded of 1 Corinthians 13, of what love really is. And as I look at the Lord Jesus and how much He’s loved us, yet never making it mandatory for us to love/accept Him in return, I am so ashamed at myself.

1 Corinthians 13:4-5

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Teach me, Lord, to love like Thee.

Yes, the Lord still needs to teach me such.

My Father :)

Posted: 20th July 2010 by ling in my meditations and such, when grace was shown

I now know why it didn’t matter to me anymore even when I don’t “have” a dad or that I no longer react emotionally towards any mention of my dad.

Because my Father in heaven, is more than any dad I can ever have.

He’s always there to hear me at any second of the day, even when all are sleeping, or when I am tired at work or behind the wheels.

He hears me and comforts me in my tears.

He protects me wherever I go and is not bound to one location.

Most of all, He loves me, even before I ever knew Him.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for reconciling us back to the Father.

=))

Psalm 95:7

For He is our God

and we are the people of His pasture,

the flock under His care.

For YOU are my God :)

these little ones

Posted: 14th July 2010 by ling in bundle of joy, church, when grace was shown

she probably never expected it from me, but this tender, little one had this sparkly-eyed moment when she saw me with it, and then she gave me a tight hug. i apologised for getting the wrong one, but she said she was still very happy.

“you want to come in?” she asked with her big black eyes and wide grin.

i asked mei jie how can working ones ever cope with having a family of their own, having to take care of their children on top of a long day at work and juggle with service and time with the Lord and study of the Word.

i think i know why now.

besides the Lord’s gracious enabling, it’s also the joy these little ones exude that makes everything else seem inconsequential.

:))

I’m still alive!

Posted: 12th July 2010 by ling in Blessings counter, church, work

Sorry for my disappearance :) Yes working life taking a toll on me :p

Nah lah, work is fun :) Come ask me personally and I’ll tell you what I do at work :)

Little Notes #2:

Bible verse holder with handwritten cards :)

Dear you,

You’re the sweetest, you know that? Not just through this lovely gesture of gracing my office desk but also how you’re brimming with excitement about me starting work,… and even after I’ve thanked you for this, you said to wait for more and that you’re “still very excited” about my job :) I thank the Lord for bringing you into my life, really :)

p.s. I LOVE all the Amy Carmichael poems :)

How was I supposed to know

Posted: 5th July 2010 by ling in poems and hymns and the like

How was I supposed to know

…blue is no longer the right hue

…cute is overrated

…chocolates were never sweet

…flowers are temporal

…words aren’t consequential

…that you were just being you?

05072010 2310 CPL

Official camp post :)

Posted: 4th July 2010 by ling in church, just an update, photos

One of the first photos I took in camp, before all the busyness kicked in :) This is Charmaine, the caretaker’s granddaughter. She’s such an adorable and sweet lil’ darling :) Pardon my rough-ness, biasa lah… heheh.

Charmaine and I @ HCC

With two of the most significant men in my life, heheh.. :) I wonder if PY is smiling at the camera, or the cameraman.. :p UNCLEEEE why must you hide your Superman tee :(