For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. 1 Cor 13:12
 

The Story of Grace

Aunty Tammy is a dear, young Aunty in our assembly who has showered much love to everyone. She is always smiling from the heart, and when you consider the circumstances she has been through, it’d be hard for you to smile the way she does! But yet she proves (and her husband too) that true joy comes from within, and that when she is weak, He is strong. She is also a great testimony not just in the assembly, in her family, but also at work. Many years back, I remember Guna kor sharing that she is an amazing testimony at work and an encouragement for him to be one (they were working in the same company).

Recently, at our Rediscover Christmas meetings, she shared her testimony to the public. I love hearing people tell how they got saved, so I was really sad that I couldn’t hear it when she shared it as I was involved in the handmime and couldn’t be in the hall. But she was kind enough to e-mail me her written testimony, and it brought tears to the eyes. I’ve got her permission to share it here, for the benefit of those who were also in the handmime team, as well as to encourage each soul who finds their way here.

What a mighty God we serve!

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Aunty Tammy’s testimony

Hi, my name is Tammy. Tonight I would like to share with you on how I became a Christian.

I accepted Lord Jesus at the age of 13 and it’s almost 30 years now. I come from a non-Christian family. At the age of 5 my mother sent me to Sunday School of Assembly of God which was near my house. I have heard all the wonderful stories in the bible about the Lord Jesus, Adam & Eve, Jonah and Samson. I have learnt many Sunday School songs too. Then when I entered Std 5 at the age of 11, my mother told me to stop going to Sunday school to concentrate in my exam. Then it was called Penilaian Exam. So I stop going to Sunday school for 1 year. After my exam, I went back to Sunday school but most of my friends were not attending anymore. As I was not comfortable going back to Sunday school, I decided to stop going.

A year later, I saw a leaflet in my letterbox from Pusat Injil Kajang, inviting students for Teens’ Club. Pusat Injil Kajang is KGC in BM, was started by Uncle and Aunty Kok and it was located in the same residence area. My sister Hazel and my childhoodfriend Joanna were keen to attend as we were very eager to do well in Form One… a milestone in our lives as we graduated from primary school. My neighbour Mrs Chin who is a Christian told my mother that KGC provides Maths tuition and encouraged her to send us to KGC Maths tuition and Teens Club. We had bicycles then and so off we cycled to KGC every Saturday, 3pm for Maths tuition by Mrs Ong and 4pm for Teens Club. My younger sister Karen and brother Desmond went to KGC Sunday School.

During Teens Club, a guy named Jason conducted games. We always have games in Teens Club. He gave out presents for winners of every game. My sister Hazel had won one of the games and had received the present. I found out it was a Good News Bible! I was so keen to have a bible as well and looked forward to win. A few weeks have passed and I still had not won anything. One Saturday Jason asked who had not won a present before. I can’t remember who else had not won but I was so happy to raise my hand and got my very first bible, very happy, still remember that feeling.

I started reading the bible as somehow I was deeply eager to find out more about God and the Lord Jesus and the stories were so intriguing. In every Teens Club meeting Uncle Kok shared messages with us taking stories and parables from the bibles which I have never heard before in Sunday School. It was really deep and I constantly thought about his messages. I have known many stories about the Lord Jesus from Sunday School but I have heard that there is a purpose He came to this world. I have never heard that His love carried Him to the cross to die in our place. In fact, I didn’t know that I can’t go to Heaven when I die!

One night, I was troubled with my problems and I couldn’t sleep. I decided to go down to the living hall. Somehow before I reached for the door of my room, I turned to my bible and I was not sure what urged me to take my bible. So I took my bible along with me. I remember being so troubled and in tremendous fear that the time seemed to have stopped and I felt my cold sweat. In despair I saw my bible again and somehow opened the bible. The moment I opened the bible these verses were somehow
highlighted for me to read. It says :

…Call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you. When you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me…. Jer 29: 12 & 13

Wow, I could feel that God spoke straight to my heart that night. As He reached down to me that night, revealing that He truly exists, I accepted the Lord Jesus into my heart. I felt this great peace in me and suddenly I was not troubled anymore about my problem. I slept so well after inviting Jesus into my life that night.

And God did not just reveal Himself and spoke to me that night. He is alive in my life and always watches over me and helps me through all my troubles and sorrow. Most people have commented that they don’t want to be Christians because Christians must go to church, have to pray and read bible but let me share with you that I want to pray, I want to go to Church and read the bible not because I have to but I want to, I love to. I just can’t imagine living my life without being in this beautiful relationship with God. So many times the Words in the bible have comforted me and guided me when I needed directions.

Let me share how wonderful God has been to me. I am a Company Secretary by profession. My job requires me to ensure compliance to the Companies Act and Listing Requirements. When I just started work, there was no secretarial department. I was the first staff and I was very junior and had not even passed all my papers. There was no one there to teach me how to do secretarial duties. I had to learn everything myself. However God has always been with me throughout my career. There were so many times I discovered on the last day of deadline that I had to file certain documents with the Registrar of Companies and to make announcements to Bursa Securities. And I was truly saved by the Lord’s Hand of protection. I was saved from non-compliance and it was something that I was not aware but God taught me just at the right time.

He has also blessed me with a good husband and two children. My younger child, Clement is mild autistic and it was truly tough trying to seek professional help for him. I remember when we found out that he may be autistic the Lord has given me the assurance and strength to walk this path. You know, God has been good to us all these years. We had difficulties looking for professional help for Clement. But God opened the way for us to get the right help and advice along the way. I have seen God’s many miracles on Clement. He couldn’t even hold a pencil even at the age of four. Every day I will hold his hand to do some writing and drawing and this went on for a few years. Today he could write and draw beautifully. He couldn’t speak for many years and today he could speak about 3 words in a sentence and he could also read. Now, when I point at the picture of crocodile and said, “crocodile”. He would correct me and said, “Alligator!”. When I pointed and said “monkey”, he disagreed and replied, “chimpanzee”. Another time I pointed and said “tiger”. He replied, “tiger”. But when I pointed the small tiger and said, “baby tiger”. He responded “tiger cub!”. These are miracles from God! I don’t know how his future will be but I know for sure that I can trust God to take care of him and that he is in good Hand.

This is my testimony. Thank you.

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Psalm 86:10 For You are great, and do wondrous things; You alone are God.


New Year poem

Throughout the New Year, and each step of the way,
May Christ be your portion, your joy and your stay.
With God’s precious precepts your daily delight
To lead and encourage in paths that are right.

“The Lord is my Shepherd,” how precious the word!
He’ll lead in green pastures, His promise is heard.
“Beside the still waters”—what comfort and rest!
What peace there is found upon Jesus’ breast.

His “goodness and mercy,” each day may you prove,
His comforting presence, His infinite love!
With richest compassions, each morning anew,
May multiplied mercies be showered on you!

“My cup runneth over,” His grace so abounds,
That fullest enjoyment in Jesus is found.
“The Lord is my portion,” this may your soul say,
And you will be happy each step of the way.

—Lois Beckwith


The Gift

That moment when your colleague tells you, “I haven’t received any presents in a long time,”

or they display a look that says nobody ever gives them presents… you know that the late nights are worth it.

If it brings me so much joy to see people’s faces light up in receiving gifts, how much happier will God be when we accept His greatest gift to mankind – eternal life in the Lord Jesus Christ.

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The other day, my other colleague asked me if I would mind a “second-hand gift”. I replied, “nobody ever refuses gifts!”

Yet much of the world around us blatantly rejects the best and most lasting Gift that God has offered to them.

:(

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Blessed Christmas everyone, and may the Lord bless you with a lovely time with your family & friends :)


Ode

So here I am.

10 more days to the end of the year.

What a year it has been! And I’m sure many would agree with me of their own year too.

When we were younger, the Lord often corrects the bigger, more obvious wrongs in our lives. Like the commitment to meetings and fellowship, time spent with Him, drawing the line with the world, not to be unequally yoked with unbelievers… and so on.

But when we get older, the battle gets more personal and it is the smaller things, (the pebbles, as Gordon MacDonald puts it) that require ‘cleaning up’. Some of these smaller things could be bad temper – or how we’d easily snap when we are told to bear with one another (guilty, check), laziness, procrastination, sloppiness with time management when we’re told to walk circumspectly in view of the Lord’s coming,  jealousy, carelessness with words, occupation with leisure, pleasure, entertainment and amusement. And more. Check, check, check. These are the toughest.

And so that was how my year went.

A lot of personal battles and struggles.

I stood up high and I also went really low.

There were moments in the crowd and moments in sheer, blissful solitude.

Struck down but not destroyed.

Going in and out of clinics, hospitals, under the knife and what-nots.

The joys of sharing the lives of the saints.

Facing various impossibilities of the unknown.

But today, 355 days later, I can truly say …

It was at my lowest that I was brought highest;

it was the molding during those moments of solitude that could bless the crowd when I go out;

it was because I know Whom I have believed that I can face the unknown with confidence;

and as I look back at the year that has gone by, I can echo the words of the psalmist …

 

Psalm 65:11

You crown the year with goodness, and richness overflows wherever You are.

 

How has your year been? :) Share His faithfulness by leaving a comment here! :)

 

 


Seeking a homeland

I’ve been thinking about this all-week long since the Lord reminded me this at boot camp. Just want to share. It’s strategically inserted in between the “by faith” remarks of the Hebrews 11 heroes of faith and been on my mind much:

These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth.  For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland.  And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return.  But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them. (Hebrews 11:13-16)


Let us draw near

… let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. (Hebrews 10:22)

 

At no time does the writer (of Hebrews) actually give the title ‘priests’ to believers, reserving the title throughout for the Lord Himself. Yet, he clearly does view Christians as priests; see 13.10, 15-16. Under the Old Covenant, the stranger that ‘drew near’ to God’s symbolic presence was to be put to death, Num. 18:7. Even Uzziah, the king of Judah, was visited in severe judgement when he intruded into the sanctuary to offer incense, 2 Chron. 26:16-21.

How privileged we are, that, though once ‘Gentiles in the flesh’, we can now, as Christian priests, draw near into God’s real and immediate presence. See that you do it today.

— by Malcolm Horlock in Day by Day in Prayer, December 6th


Sisterly vibes

because I can’t tahan how lame my sister is… this is what she wrote to me in a chat:

PeiYee:  blablabla… -/.-
  btw that stroke is my front hair.. -/.-

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Pearls

I’m still feeling rather awed by the fact that someone asked me about the gospel. You know, we can get so used to the fact that “the message must go out” and find ways to get it out, pray like it depended totally on us, that we forget the value of the gospel. I think that zapped me back to reality a little. I forget that the gospel is precious and invaluable, and people should crave for it! They should long for it and I shouldn’t be surprised if anybody asked. We’re so used to hard-selling the gospel we forget that we are told not to cast pearls to swines. Oh the joy of seeing a soul so hungry for salvation!!


Faithfulness

I felt like I grew up overnight. And there was no warning sign that it was coming.

But He assured me that I am walking in His will for now, and I should seek His direction if He leads me elsewhere.

The wiles of the Devil are so subtle… so subtle that I never knew he had been slowly planting doubts in my mind and heart. But praise God for victory in Him!

Conclusion from yesterday’s lessons learnt:

  1. God is sovereign. He knows all, sees all and has wonderful plans for me. Even this!
  2. I felt that if the world could learn a thing about faithfulness and perseverance, I hope they can learn it through the way He works in me as a testimony of His mighty power and grace.
  3. He has never failed me.

Thank You Lord, for the way You delight in teaching me Your ways and making me more like You.

:)


True and False Religion

“There are only two religions in the world:

The true and the false.

All phases of false religion are alike. They all say:

‘Something in my hand I bring,’

The only difference between them being as to what the ‘something’ is.

The true religion says: ‘Nothing in my hand I bring.’”

— H.A. Ironside, in ‘The Only Two Religions’